i’m so far out there today. I can’t rub my eyes,shake my head and make the fuzziness go away. it’s not just a sleepiness thing, although i am mighty tired. i just feel distant. absolutely disconnected. i think it’s a defense mechanism. something that my body and brain are doing that i have no say in. everytime i try to think about what’s going on, everything just blurs out of focus. if i could concentrate long enough to grasp the reality of this place, the heaviness would be too much. all sense would fly out the door and so would i. paycheck be damned. but we live in this world. the world of rent,bills and insurance. i cannot leap without the next net firmly in place.
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